The Ghost I've Become - Forever Gone

Am I to blame
For what happened here?
As you lay down
Your mind slumbers now

The wind howls loud
My eyes are watering
An ear-piercing sound
Is heard as I shriek

Like sand between my fingers, I see my shattered soul
Falling to barren ground
Absent of your touch

I need forgiveness, without you I'm not whole
Tell me where it went wrong
Can't remember your face, you left me with years of pain
Mental scars marked with guilt, all alone in despair

The moment forever gone
You spend forever asleep due to my will

Like sand between my fingers, I see my shattered soul
Falling to barren ground
Oh dear God I miss you

I wish there was something I could change
I hope that somewhere you could see this horrible weight

I need forgiveness, without you I'm not whole
Tell me where it went wrong
Can't remember your face, you left me with years of pain
Mental scars marked with guilt, all alone in despair